Vaccines..and Autism

Ah the post i have been dreading...lol. Might as well get it over with. Ha.

Such a controversial subject! Well...this topic bothers me allot. Because everyone is looking to blame some one or something for the cause. Don't get me wrong if a cure is found or discovered, i would be first in line. But i am kinda sick of the angry attitude people have against vaccines. I am at peace with Elijah's diagnosis. I am not mad at anyone, nor looking to place blame. God never created a mistake. He didn't say whoops! when he created Elijah, I in fact know that Elijah having autism was His plan all along. And i completely accept that. Period. I choose not to question it. Instead i look at the positive of it. Yes it is hard work, really really really hard work. At times i feel so inadequate. Really, me Lord....you want me to be responsible for this sweet boy, was i really the right choice?  But anything in life you have to work at or is hard is the most rewarding.

I can not blame vaccines for Elijah's condition. Because he had signs at a young age. I would say by 6 months old. The MMR is not administered until 12 to 15 months old. No, the signs were not obvious. I thought he was incredibly laid back and sweet, non demanding. But now as an educated parent i can look back and see them. Even to this day though it would still be hard to know for sure if i had to do it all over again in hind sight. It only became obvious when he failed to progress. He just stalled. But let me say..Elijah is the least vaccinated of all my children, when i knew something was wrong i started delaying shots..and Elijah is still very very behind. Funny thing is my normal developing children are all up to snuff on theirs. The reason i delay shots for Elijah is his immune system is very weak. If we go to church and there is a kid who had the puke bug or a cold 3 days ago..Elijah with out fail will catch it. And then the next 2 weeks are miserable to say the least. Because of his sensory integration issues even the tiniest cold will set off the craziest behaviors. Makes me think maybe that is why Allot of parents notice the Autism more after vaccinations..Their senses go into over drive and they become hard to control. Also i believe vaccinations are good thing. Yes, i wish they were more "green"...i get the "greenest" shots out there. I always say i would rather have an Autistic son than a dead one...seriously. Of all my kids Elijah would be the one to catch measles or mumps or rubella...heck..even chicken pox..and we have had deaths in the family associated with those. I don't enjoy my kids having shots...i understand the risk, my decision to vaccinate is an educated one. I don't believe everything i read on the Internet...i believe any extreme is wrong..I am not all gung ho shots or gung ho no shots. I get tired reading entirely biased articles on both sides. I do not believe the government has a conspiracy out there to make all our children autistic.  If i spent all my life worrying about these issues all i would do is worry my life away and dedicate my time to being natural..and my life and my children lives would pass by spent in fear. Instead i try to take a balanced approach. I feed my children healthy food. I take precautions...but it isn't my lives work to inform everyone on the planet. Or be obnoxious. Elijah was totally breast fed, only ate home made organic baby food. Plain and simple...not every thing is in our hands. Somethings were just meant to be. So instead of being paranoid  I have chosen to cast  my care upon God. I am not in control. I have never felt more out of control. But that is ok, because when i am in control i tend to mess everything up any way.

*please note, i understand each parent has there own reasons for doing what they are doing with their child, i do what i believe is right. As well i am sure you do what you think is right. This post is not ment to condescend anyone or to say i know better. So please don't send me emails on how shots are evil..i have herd and researched it all before trust me*